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yay!! pass mi shuttle run for de first tym for de last 4 yrs..
haha... let mi c... went to breeks at amk today.. de food wasnt dat magnificent as it sounds maybe cos we changed the chicken to fish and chips as many classes complain dey cant finish it in de last few trips.. brownie wasnt dat nice as expected.. country manna de nicer.. but thou.. i well many were v hungry then so anything edible can liao... oh i topple the whole glass of lemon tea.. shoot.. and dey didnt refill.. expectionally tired today... just lyk every other days... tink i am going to bed now.. intending to start mi studies now.. cos didnt score dat well for last maths test.. wads worse.. it's all careless mistakes.. darn.. nvm.. i didnt really study for tt test anyway.. was too tired de prev nite.. haha.. since i am at it.. maybe i sld study a bit for organic chem first b4 i sleep.. ahaha.. =) stop and look b4 moving on.. time fliess...
so fast.. seems to be tiring out when i did nth... postponed one of de tuts today and found miself slacking thruout de whole day.. super stuck at amaths someone told mi is an honour to serve de lord.. true but dunno y hear le a bit bu shuang.. a bit onli la.. everyone seems to be busy and i seems to be free... sld be happy dat i haf a happy family dat dun quarrel.. well seldomly.. but dunno y.. nt feeling as contented dat i supposed to be.. i am nt lacking in cash nor am i wealthy thou.. but mi life is realli smooth.. smooth until lyk mi existence is not realli needed.. wadever maybe i am too tired and i start to sprout nonsense again.. serving tml.. feel lyk going to kbox leh.. but lyk waste money lyk tt.. officialli celebrating mi bro bdae wif a cake tml.. yay..!! sweet secrets's mango mirror.. tired tired le.. end.. full so full..
treat mi bro and da sao to swensens.. ordered earthquake... 8 scoops.. 3 peps.. on de verge of having diarrhoea ate too much icecream for de past few days.. tired so tired.. didnt get to take mi nap.. brain's aledi shut down.. go slp le.. good nite.. pek chek pek chek pek chek pek chek.. bu shuang bu shuang bu shuang bu shuang...
sat haf 2 tutss and sun gt to serve.. this weekend i cant rest at all.. wahhhh.... ='( hmm.. u all sae to mi u serve is bcos u feel too blessed and u haf an overflow to serve.. but if i sae i dun feel blessed.. will u all sae to mi den u stop serving or wad.. actualli i am quite ok la.. cos i got a good family and a dad hu will play cards wif mi.. play playing de same stuff over and over and over again.. but i lyk ahhaa.. cos he noe i bored.. sometyms even if he tired oso will play wif mi.. haf frens hu will help mi.. gt a pri skool fren still in contact sounds pathetic but i treasure tis 5 and a half yrs of frenship.. i mean it.. thou always sound lyk enemies.. and he always suanin mi.. but i m realli happy to haf this frenship still going on.. maybe he's even lyk de bestest fren to mi.. but i noe i am nt he's.. but nvm.. ahahah.. haizz... someone bring mi to fly kite... there is smth lacking in mi life.. i dunno wad it is.. maybe is mi motivation in life.. i feel i sld be here in this life for a reason.. since i am still not dead.. after dangerous encounters.. but tell mi.. hahha.. today.. went home wif yuewen.. hahha.. went to 7-11 and eat de pizza.. woah i didnt know haf to throw de whole box inside de oven de sia.. ahaa.. den so damn hot.. and we sat under de hot sun.. ohh.. i ate oso a cookies and cream icecream nt bad.. oh man.. i tot i sae i sld stop eating icecream.. hmm.. sorry cant help it.. ate 2 even. one is de cookies and cream another is de cornettos mini? just hung up fone wif liu ying.. hmmm.. thks for being a good fren yo!! ahhaha.. gt chinese test tml.. going to bed finalli.. hmm.. i sld change a blogskin ba.. and start linking peps.. but i dunno how to thou.. aiya.. i suck at cooking.. html stuff.. blog stuff.. haiz.. no choice gt to start learning it.. at least i noe how to fry egg.. make pancakes.. cook rice.. and microwave some food.. and eat canned food.. ya.. nvm i can learn.. till now mi life is always v free except frm exam tyms.. but all mi frens are v busy and i am de one hu always find em.. how i wish dey will find mi.. feeling lost.. end.. drowning in a whirlpool filled wif troubles.. and stress.. and boredom.. hu will save mi.. hu will noe i nid salvation.. hu will noe i nid someone to bother mi.. wah.. strugglin and busy with skool work for de past few days..
why wun u reply mi anymore? aint we frens anymore.. just wanna get back to those days when everything was well again.. at least tell mi a reason rather den u start ignorin mi.. tts equalli hurting.. fixed frenship but no change for de betta.. aint it de same.. nv will i ask for ur understanding again.. hmm.. i am lazy to maintain frenship le.. i am not impt and nt close to u anyway.. i dun feel lyk caring anymore bcos u dun gif a damn.. and u always forget wad u promised.. whr's the money to promised to pay and whr did de lunch u promised go.. hate it when peps sae forget wad dey sae.. if its not on purpose i can understand.. but 'forget' and 'sorry' appeared too many tyms le.. and tt becomes insincere.. actualli arguing tyms seems to be betta thou it seems lyk frenship seems to be broken but at least dere is stuff to tok about.. thou unhappy stuff.. feel more sianer wifout stuff to tok.. cos nt close so dere is stuff u wun sae and u would sae nth to mi.. and whenever i tok sounds more lyk u r fu yan den real chatting.. dun wan arguments le.. so wun tell u directly even again.. i treasure this frenship.. but this frenship seems to be sucking big tym.. but i dun feel lyk losing it.. try nt to contact but cant help it cos i am too bored.. but brings more misery ba.. but u r good enuff le.. i am de one hu is too free.. thks for finalli asking.. i am grateful thou i didnt tell u y ahha.. actualli.. its realli happi when peps just ask u some simple stuff.. real simple stuff and it warms mi enuff le.. or some greetings will do de tricks.. but hardly anyone does tt for mi.. feel lyk disappearing but i tink no one will notice just lyk de day after the fairfield.ngeeann choir concert.. everyone was busy toking to their own frens and i was left alone.. even when i left de big grp and walk back on mi own no one notice.. tt mmt i understand dat i haf such low existence to everyone.. wonder if one day i go missing wld anyone noe.. hmm.. maybe mi family wld noe.. ahha.. miss de mushroom.cheese toast at tan tock seng hospital.. vending machine de.. real nice.. hot and good stuff and its nt v expensive $2.50.. ahha.. must rmb to buy it next tym i visit mi aunt again.. ahha.. ate swensens on monday.. yay!! wah tried a new spaghetti.. other den de usual chicken teriyaki and black pepper seafood.. its err.. crayfish wif the tomato sauce de.. v nice.. maybe i was too hungry?? oh.. finalli.. intending to treat mi bro and mi da sao.. to swensens.. i had to fork out 50 bucks and mi dad sponser another 50 bucks.. mi mom in charge of cake.. must haf cake.. definitely hahahahahah.. cos mi and mi bro lyk cake.. oso must rmb dad's bdae tis yr.. 4get last yr and mi mom sae dun wan celebrate cos it had past aledi.. mi mom sae nt good meaning bad luck?? nt sure.. seems to be having mild toothache.. ohh.. wahh.. result of eating too much icecream.. haf to stop le.. if tooth decay cham le.. aha choi.. life seems to be an arduous journey.. but luckily when i stretch out mi hands dere are still frens and family who are willing to lend a helping hand.. i went to church today at suntec woah.. however, i did fall asleep but i tink i didnt miss out de essences of it ba.. well i tink la.. and i didnt fall asleep as much lyk last tym when the pastor starts to open his mouth to preach on the sermon i will doze off instantly.. today i lasted for a quite a few parts.. tt is a improvement leh.. front part is bout de God had aledi planned ur path so dun be disappointed if tings do nt wk out de way u tot to be cos God had aledi planned much more betta stuff.. well.. just believe it..
i realli gif respect to mi aunt's hu can sit thru all 4 of our church's service.. oh man.. tt is so incredible.. i cant even hold out for one and he can sat thru all 4.. li hai.. 'o' Afterwhich i had lunch at the kopitiam and ate icecream brownie at country manna.. quite nice la.. but de regular seems kinda small.. wonder how small is the small one.. oh ya.. i tink i solve de prob le ba.. thkk god.. well sent de sms i drafted at church.. but thou.. dun tink i will bother the person as much le.. betta listen to mi fren and keep an arm's length away.. dun feel lyk botherin wif such issues anymore.. besides.. it's de same la.. decided to start to save money le.. actualli i m not tt broke but after the fri movie day and de buying of comics.. mi savings had plunged significantly oh man.. i still gt to tink of a present for mi bro.. tot of watch, shoes, tie, pencil case, bag, wallet, games.. well all he had aledi.. but no ideas liao leh.. dun suppose mi to buy handphone or wad samsung lcd screen.. dun haf tt much money yet la.. wait for windfall.. nvm God will provide.. but now even comics i have to think twice on buying... beside tt.. i still gt to buy a cake and another cake on mi fren b'dae.. hmm.. tinking of bringing it to skool and help her celebrate wif her frens.. woah... hope i am nt de one hu is planning.. maybe sld ask help from her frens.. still nid c canteen gt wad kind aunties can help mi keep de cake.. morning oso nid take cab.. or else.. given to the bus which is lyk canned sardines in the morning.. by de tym de cake reached the skool.. nobody would be able to recognise tt it is a cake.. duh.. hmm.. skooling tml.. gtg slp le.. hmm i nid to learn to slp early le.. let mi c intending to slp at 11 plus every skooling day.. yo jia you to miself ba.. today i stay at home almost de whole day.. well went to parkway parade wif mi dad in the morn for a while.. hee bought the wall's choco and cookies and cream icecream mi fren recommended
came back at one plus and a while ltr lyk 3 plus i fell asleep till lyk 6 plus.. illteralli slacking on the sofa haha.. den nt long after i woke up i gt to visit mi aunt wif mi parents le.. hmm.. she met wif a bus accident a few weeks before well was on the papers i tink. in coma for about 2 weeks and now she's awake.. yay! actualli awake for about a week le.. but she is making tremendous progress thank god.. =D even de doc sae so.. its pretty amazing to c her unscrewin the feng you ah.. dunno wad oil bottle den holdin pen well simple stuff to us la but it's a very good sign la.. oh.. den mi mom brought mi to c a patient in the ward beside mi aunt's.. the patient looked kinda deformed due to injuries on her brain and unable to close her mouth as her jaw was cracked i tink.. wads worse was tt she's onli 25 yrs old.. i heard tt she was in johor dere where her handbag was snatched by those peps riding on motorcycles.. but she did nt break her loose and caught hold of her handbag and i tink was dragged on the road/floor and thus causing serious injuries.. she still in coma now for bout 7 months and had operations on her brain for 10 tyms.. so peps be careful while in johor or some other wu lu malaysian states.. betta still if u do not bring along handbags.. many cases such as this happened numerous tyms le.. however, wad touches mi is tt her maid was always taking good care of her ever since she was in this condition and did nt leave her side.. she even slept beside the bed in the hospital man... wahh.. such good maid lo.. thou we often had seen articles and reports on maids being abused or employers being killed by maids all tt but its onli once in a blue moon.. dere are still good employers and loyal maids around de la.. oh ya.. i finalli go to learn how to fry pancakes on mi own.. yay!! well it's just adding water to pancake mix la.. wahh :'( mi family dun trust mi cookin.. dey sae to mi " u eat urself ah" den i wan fry egg den mi kor sae aiyo.. i den dun wan eat.. wah lau.. onli last tym fail mani tyms nia.. how can dun trust mi.. ahha.. but i dun deny i am a flop at cookin.. sometyms i cant even microwave food well.. hmmm... ahha.. oh ya.. mi kor's bdae coming le.. aiya just treat as i dunno.. no la.. nt tt bad.. but dunno wad to buy sia.. i nid to put on mi tinking cap le.. woah.. hmm.. i didnt get to slp last nite till 4,5 am.. too much stuff surrounding mi mind..
woah.. i de end i woke up late to skool den mi dad drove mi to skool.. luckily i managed to get to skool in tym.. yay.. a lucky day.. well.. today was student learning festival.. and no skool.. and i was the one of the presenters for the chinese booth.. but i didnt get the badge eventualli and i forget to return the badge i borrowed back to cf.. oops.. but it was v funni la.. particularly bcos of our v funni chinese teacher.. he shared 2 of his job experiences wif us and it goes to show he is a bit childish but nonetheless.. the funniest teacher i met.. everytym he starts to tok in eng almost everyone in our class will start laughin cos he was frm china and his eng was a bit err ya.. u noe.. hmm.. we gt to stay at the booth frm lyk 8 to 11am.. but we dun haf to do anything.. just sit dere.. but unfair.. our chairs are gone!! we gt to sit on the floor.. wahhh.. but nvm.. its the same.. suddenli felt so lucky dat i was dere to help thou.. this yr's student learnin fest was boring.. not as much games as last yr.. and the game booth dun even haf sweets unlike last yr.. maybe dey spent too much money on the mascot which look lyk a giant potato... hmm.. some sae its cute la.. but actualli i feel dat its nt much of a use lo.. maybe gt use la dunno.. lets c.. also, i learnt some ancient chinese characters today and a poem wif interpretation frm mi cher.. hahah.. =) today we gt to knock off early at lyk 1130 after a survey.. after it i went to catch a show wif qq.. the "re-cycle"/ gui yu ah.. hmm.. its not v scary.. well nt scary at all.. maybe a bit shocking at the start.. but at the ltr part of the show u gt used to the "ghosts" and it is not scary at all la.. this show is more of a warning to others to lyk treasure stuff den a normal ghost story wif aims to scare the wits off of peps.. but the ending is pretty abrupt thou.. after the show.. i went to mi granny's home at tanjong pagar.. and the mrt trip is lyk frm tampines -> tanjong pagar.. a few stops.. eventualli i fell asleep on board and at bugis even.. well it was so close le.. but luckily when i woke up i onli overshot one stop which was at outram.. den of course i took a mrt back.. phew.. before i went up to mi granny's home.. i bought muffins frm choco n spices.. a pretty famous shop dere and i tink was on e newspapers b4.. wah their business super good lo.. its lyk onli 330 to 4 when i reached dere and dey were onli left wif 2 flavors wif lyk initialli 10 plus? onli left choco chip and orange peel de.. choco chip is nice and mi mom lyk e orange peel de.. ahha.. hmm.. so i spent the rest of the day slacking at mi granny's home.. and managed to finish watchin guess^3 and the police show's final episode.. went back home at 1135.. ahha.. overall.. its a pretty good day.. just tt i haven solve mi prob yet.. but nvm.. gif mi some more tym.. i wanna tink of a betta way to tok (maybe).. hmm.. may God bless mi den.. ahha.. peps often tink that in trials, God is nt wif u and will feel even more depressed but since God promised that he will nv leave nor forsake u he will be wif u no matter whr u r or in wad state u r in.. u just haf to dawn on the realisation he is dere wif u.. "In Christ, All Of God’s Promises Are Yes And Amen "- extracted frm http://www.newcreation.org.sg ok fine..wad a great start on mi blog...
on the start this might be de nt v lucky day of mi life yet.. hmm.. it seems tt it has been getting worser and worser.. on the start.. everything went wrong after skool.. first.. i sat on the wrong bus.. just trying mi luck to get home with a new experience.. in the end i saw i going towards the road of out tampines den i drop off and went to e opp side.. oh man.. i waited damn long for e bus to come.. when it finalli arrived.. den i ask e uncle whether did it pass by avenue 10.. den e uncle sae no.. so i supposed it was on the other side where i initialli drop off.. woah luckily e bus arrived promptly and again i ask e uncle whether he will passby avenue 10.. den he pointed and told mi to take the bus on de other side.. oh man.. in the end.. i gt frustrated bout whr to take and just walk back to skool and take e usual bus home.. when i gt home.. i gt scalded by e realli hot soup... well its a tiny burn so nt much of a prob.. ok.. ya.. den at nite when i send some comments to mi ya fren... den in the end dunno gt back comments which i just scan thru onli.. den i dunno wad to say.. pretty hurting thou.. well very ba.. but at least tts wad he realli meant finalli.. but surprisingly i am nt angry.. just dunno wad to say and do.. hmmm.. ask mi another fren and she sae maybe tts another part of understanding.. den leave it first.. nvm.. i will tink bout it some other tym ba.. but true thou.. he is nt a close fren to mi anyway.. haiz.. but e onli part i rmb is tt he sae i am makin use of him.. hmm am i realli doing tt? i dunno leh.. i nv tot tt much thou.. let mi c wad i rmb frm tt sms.. wah its v long.. i forward it to mi fren and it became 2 mmses.. hmm.. maybe i nid to tink over.. wah those smses i sent is lyk i drafted it on sun lo.. pass lyk 4 days send le den even more probs to tink over.. feel lyk treating lyk everything did nt happen even back to days when this frenship did nt exist.. but i noe i sldnt run away anymore le.. wads more i noe there will be greater challenges in life.. if i living on.. nv knew i will nid it.. but i tink i sld go find those frenship books or smth to read seems i am free.. but wadever.. woah.. suddenli rmb mi pri skool days are v fun.. nv tot i will be dealin wif frenship probs now thou.. tot its lyk hmm dunnno when but it seems v fast.. hmmm.. maybe is lyk wad some peps told mi.. to go make new frens and 4get bout those lost de.. maybe i am too persistent le.. sld let go le.. sld forget everything.. haiz.. how i wish to go back those days whr skool wk is still a breeze and can play and be happy.. real happy thou.. now lyk many things around mi haf lost and now i am trying to find back.. well its a futile attempt thou.. maybe wads lost are meant to be lost.. oh man.. i am getting more and more tired la.. hmm how i wish to get o lvls done fast.. but first gt to study.. hmmm.. buck up on mi language.. ahhaa.. feel lyk seekin refuge in the younger days.. to be childish but no one will chid u.. sometyms realli hope tt i am knocked down by a car or smth "accidentalli" but pls do nt survive.. there will be much more troubles after tt.. maybe will gt insurance and mi parents can have it.. woah den dey can pay off the home or smth.. wah den i dun haf to tink tt much.. dun have to bother frens and be scolded.. dun haf to worry bout skool work or any other stuff.. hmm.. i have still yet to find any meaning in life.. when i c str all i c is study den go to wk den maybe retire den die.. its not lyk going to be a great figure and influence the world or smth.. |
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